Marcus Aurelius
Well, easy to say from a ancient Ceasar, but in fact Marcus Aurelius is right.
I am still somewhere to find out what he means. In the end of 2013 I somehow did not feel good. A lot of work and I was running behind it without breath and proper break for the mind. Big goals for early 2014 made the moments I was living in even heavier on my shoulders. A break was needed. So I took it and I am just slowly finding back to normal. The change is: I stop feeling bad about it, like I did so much in the end of 2013.
Things are as they are and forcing yourself to pain is a bad choice.
Breathing and taking a deep break was the cure. And I found myself back in Ancient Rome with my full soul. I was reading all the books from Simon Scarrow about two Legionaries, Macro and Cato. I really enjoyed those. Watched the series "Spartacus" to finish. Read historical magazines about Rome and Celts, read some Asterix and Obelix comics and played Rome II. I got lost in Gaul and ... well, I hate Ancient Gaul. If you play with the Romans you have though and sturdy enemies, if you play with a celtic tribe it is even worse as they are so bad when it comes to ... well, they would rather fall in battle than call another tribe a true friend and that makes it pretty though when the roman legions march in. My fault was to play the game always on "very hard". That was my decision and yet I did not conquer Gaul but stopped playing it for the gods sake. Here follows a little story to summ up my experience in Gaul:
I marched my roman legions into dark Gaul without knowing what lies in front of me:
Beautiful, wild landscapes ...
Brave men marched under the eagle standard ...
And tired ones ... I knew they would not make it long ...
So we marched on ...
And we found only abandoned places among the road ...
Bones and remains of civilisation ...
The celtic tribes were always one or two steps ahead of us ...
We have been able to find one of the enemies armies close to a bigger town ...
So my army was preparing myself for battle ...
First we let the dogs loose ...
... but they came back with bloody noses ... so it was time to unleash the marching feet of my army...
... but none of them have been seen again. Dark Gaul swallowed them all. Brave and farting men, all gone ...
Well, and a Young Miniature's bust found itself with colour too, a roman Legionary ... so you see, whereever my heart takes me, inspiration is not far. The green guy, well let's talk about him another time ...
Meanwhile, I made myself some rules for 2014.
I have to take it easy with my mind. Don't force myself to pain by running as fast as I can behind Emails, Fame others put on me, guilt I put on myself because being not able to do and manage it all. Concentrate on important things, taking time to breath. That is why the jungle is a bit slow at the moment. I hope our readers are not angry with that and all who know me should know that there is no offense behind this decision. So I am organising a lot of things behind the curtain but I take proper break ...
Early 2014 is pretty full with Painting Classes and I will focus on those. Travelling to Trier, Germany next weekend and really looking forward to it, but more about that soon in single blog post.
Well, so far from the table ...
Keep on happy painting!
Best Wishes
Roman
Yes I hear you, We breathe into the "present moment" to unravel the illusion of life's stress, and there we find peace. One brush stroke to another, without judgement, no goals, just the joy of being present in this moment.
ReplyDeleteDeath is just a moment too, all part of the process, we see it everyday in the birth of a thought, its life and passing away.
Rome II looks good, Love the scarrow books too, just reading Hannibal by Ben Kane.
Youngs legionaire looks fantastic, you have brought him to life :-)
With Metta
Hey Roman,
ReplyDeletethe skin of the dead king bust is very cool. Can you post some more pics of it please?
Best regards,Dellolyn
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Don't rush and try to recreate the whirlwind of a year you had last year. And don't let the web dictate when you post and paint either. Remember that this is at it's core a hobby and it is meant to be fun and relaxing, maybe challenging at times, but not demanding. I am sure everyone understands :)
ReplyDeleteNow stop crying and get back to work you lazy bum!!! :P
~Insert whip cracking sound FX here~
Thanks for your comments on this ... I really appreciate those.
ReplyDeleteLike both of you say: We breathe right here right now ... somehow 2013 was truely a whirlwind of emotions, travels, action and even more stuff. I just have to accept that the start of 2014 is much more calmed. I do enjoy that, but I am not used to that ... maybe that is where that melancholy comes from ... I stop whining now, thanks for the whip cracking, Zab!
@Michael
Soon, photos, but I have him with me at the Painting Class in Trier :)