Jungle Fu?
Yeah i mean everything posted in here is somebodys personal Fu. The blog now reached 1008 postings of Miniature related Fu and other weirdo stuff to provide your daily dose of inspiration. I have no idea why we slept during the 1000 mark, but that is the way of the sleepy ape gang down there in the foggy mountains :) - i can't believe that there are 1000 postings of sometimes truely brain farts and still the subscribers go higher - you are kidding me, don't you? I don't think this is important News and will quit it now, no 2000 announcement someday, let's get serious:
Kong Fu?
It's my discipline or the non existing of it that i hate somedays. Many big changes await me in this new year and i want to get back to some discipline on myself on many subjects.
I can easily imagine the following picture with me included. I would be the doggy that already has eaten the cat. Sometimes my discipline is very low. I am more and more realizing that i won't paint miniatures for the rest of my life as daily work. It somehow makes me stuck, there is no personal character experience upgrade included. I am just sitting here, day by day, trying to get some discipline for painting. I have tons of it during the first hours of a project but then they vanish and vapourize. To me it seems that i've lost most of my discipline to finish a project. Why i don't know? Maybe i am bored after painting so much? Lazy? Tired? Old? I am searching for something that keeps my brain together, something besides miniatures all my life. What would that be? I am on it.
I got a new miniature to my personal collection. It is a Pegaso Maya Warrior in 75 mm painted by
Pavel Tomášek. I am really happy about having this treasure in my collection and i start to love the idea of a bigger personal collection. Many thanks again to Pavel for his great service. I made some photos of it while it stands in my cabinet between the rest of the collection i am very proud of. My heart loves this place in my cabinet big time for sure:
Mmh. My Kong Fu was better in the past. Ok, i am drinking coffee and listening to old cramophone music like "Waiting for a bus", without even being the owner of a gramophone. The internet makes it happen, i am so glad i got mine :) - If i ask myself what is the most important thing to me, it is not Miniature Painting for me anymore - it is about love i guess, love that i might have lost, love that i can still feel, love that i am out for search and keep. Discipline, doesn't fit here well, but i always have to think about this word and how i used to treat its meanings. Weird Kong Fu, i know and don't care, i can start a million projects like the following these days but i need to find some satisfaction in bringing something to an end - can you tell me which Space Marine Chapter this will be? A Space Marine bust made from the Inquisitor Artemis model in 54 mm... somehow i know that i am tired of Space Marines, but i had to build this no matter what - don't know when it will be painted as i don't know the order yet - maybe you can help here and tell me what order he shall be. I know he is a Deathwatch Marine, but i paint him like i want to, no matter the Inquisition Mark on his shoulder pack - ha! I could do a grey knight - that is what i will do... yeah, demon hunter and destroyer of the chaos itself, a clean proud angel that keeps the balance in the universe... no matter what, here is the bust of an upcoming grey knight...
"Kong Fu? Kong Fu?" bouncing up and down my brain. Did i forget anything because of my lack of discipline? Who knows? I am going to ask the old gramophone and it tells me that the "RENEGADE" will soon be renegading through the jungle...
Keep on happy painting!
Best Regards
Roman
As i am a human i can only tell you my subjective perspective on your "problem" if i can call it like that...
ReplyDeleteFor me, most things in life are about goals.
I set myself a goal and i work very hard to reach it. This brings some problems for me, often i feel exhausted or i reached a goal and feel like floating in a bubble of disorientation. Often i just set new goals and set a new course. The problem for me is not to reach a goal, i have much discipline and focus if i want ... i know myself pretty well and i can say i can reach mosts goals i set myself. the problem is what to do after it...
What is the sense of this message? I don't know exactly ... maybe you have reached a goal (some goals are not set by your mind, they are just there and you are unaware of them) and now you feel lost. OR maybe you have a goal and you know you can't reach it anymore because of your soon to come change in lifestyle...
I can't tell you but before the end of this writing i have to say that every person is different so maybe my whole approach is just dumb donkey poo ....
Have a nice day my brother!
Hi,
ReplyDeleteI read yout Kong Fu more often than the painting articles these days, because I feel a bit tired of these miniatures...and thoughts of such depth are far more interesting...
Everyone meets several crossroads in his live where you have to make a choice that will influence your life...with me it's my studies at this moment...I signed up for two different subjects that I thought I was strongely interested in...but it just doesn't feel right at the moment, so I'm confronted to similar questions ;)
I can't imagine to do a dry routine job for the rest of my life which makes it very difficult sometimes because I change my mind very often for what i like an what not...
I thnik you should make a larger break from your painting stuff and do something special...search a new crossroad, offering new possibilities, perhaps just bash a ballon filled with paint on an empty canvas, or go sailing or trekking in the high north...something that frees your mind from the boundaries of the grey randomness of everydays routine ;)
Regards Marc
Hi Roman,
ReplyDeleteMiniature modelling, and is not only painting them, but developing an idea a see it culminated is my hobby not my daily work...I don't know how sane would I be if I could not resort to miniatures to break the awful dread of daily life...for that reason I will try to tackle any subject, at any scale with any approach...I'm always learning and this keeps me going...
I imagine that doing this as "mean of life" might be different and at some point became a bit of a lead weight...BUT, I must say that these last few years and thanks to people like you and all the Jungle inhabitants I have grow as modeller and therefore as a person..
I always said to you that your Karma is big, and sometimes Karma demands a bit of a break from tedious "normality".....don't despair you are more than a "master modeller" and would find whatever you think you have lost.....
And I am proud of be included in that little corner of your personal collection with that "angry panda"
We are here for you, not just because we demand but because we care, and that is what you have spread far and wide with this your heart project